Angel in my life

Joe Budden - Angel In My Life
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Lets look behind the Swarovski crystals
Behind the .50 calibers and the pistols
Misused, pardoned self got to excuse, my issues
For me to have you a ritual
But, I aint as crazy as I seem to be
Its just that nothin is the way that is seems to me
Im feelin less then, druggin him up with anti-depressents
In essence im threatenin my character asessment
Truth told, I figure a few hoes
Mixed with some new clothes should cover my loop holes
If Im misundersttod or mis-guided
Started when they passed the L said just try it
When I dont wanna get out of bed I just fight it
Sometimes I dont eat for days I just diet
Only live once so if I just like it
I aint even checkin the price, I just buy ****
Im thinkin that will just hide it
But all it takes is life to ignite ****
Im thinkin bout death wonderin how Im gonna go
I cant be insane for just wantin to know
In my head I die often, I used to think of suicide often
Good suit on and a nice coffin
But, that aint somethin I would try myself
Still they lock me in this room all by myself
I need a... think I need a.....
They say my symptoms are aggressive
They titled me a compulsive obsessive slash manic depressive
They trying to tell Im a con and I game ******
Thats one reason I dont even entertain ******
Not important who they are I wont name ** ****
They like to say I got a tendency to blame ******
I keep ****** **** up but keep tryin
If yall would just trust me I wouldnt just keep lyin
If I had bread I wouldnt be in debt
Let me clarify get in Def
I feel like every time I been less
When ever I invest whenever I inset I feel Im innept
I try to make them understand but they just wont incept
I tell them four million others I am the templed
There aint no book that tells a story there aint no index
We got some different type of cuts and no they aint princess
All this indigest seemingly in less
How I take in stress when I always went best
Aching in my chest and yet it still wont break me
They say the room is padded for my own safety
But the cushion dont soften ****
They locked the door but still they let my thoughts in it
And no one can tell me why Im here
I cant even see the sky from here
I guess my time is near