Ungrateful

[Intro]
I don't wanna seem ungrateful, God
[Intro]
But I don't wanna be here
我不想看起來像一個忘恩負義的人
I got some things to get off my chest
但是我也不想出現在這裡
But maybe it's best I keep it a secret
有些話我想說出來
31st December, the 1st of Jan
但也許把它當作秘密會更好
Same shit, I don't care bout the new year
從十二月三十一到一月一
New house somewhere that ain't poverty driven
新年對我來說只是個節日
It's mad in the place that I grew in
在富人區隨便買套房

我成長的地方純走瘋狂
[Verse 1]
Served a pregnant lady, it ****ed in my head
Couple things I regret tryna earn a wage
[Verse 1]
48 Laws, one book that I read
那些懷孕的女人讓我頭疼
So if I rеpent can I turn the page?
對不起那些讓我為了利益放棄的人
Gotta gеt rid of bad vibes, anti-clockwise, gotta burn the sage, uh
哥們儿最喜歡的書，48 Laws
I'll say with it chest but I know some things locked in, I prefer not to say
如果虔誠懺悔，上帝會原諒我嗎
I fked up, I'm admittin' it
需要push the pppppp，正能量老鐵！
I got no ego, I got no shame
哥們儿的心裡話說出來可能會影響到他們，我寧願不說
I swallow my pride and say that I'm missing it
我承認我搞砸了
Creep in the changing room at school and thief from the kids that are privileged
但我並不自負，賺錢也並不丟人
Stolen clothes with a rip in it
我把我的自負心藏起來，雖然更想念曾經的自己
Also a stolen phone no sim in it
躲在更衣室的我，偷富二代同學的我
Now I got P's , I give a lot back
偷來的衣服上的裂口
No charity work tryna write off tax
偷來的沒插卡的手機
Feds got me on a driving ban
現在我能做的只有回報
In the passenger seat till my license back, uh
為了逃稅從不支持慈善機構
Ghost and fly off the map, uh
雖然哥們儿駕照被吊銷
Try get my mind off rap
但是我不缺小弟開車
I get some sort of survivors guilt
現在我走向全世界
When I see YM's still supplying crack
試著讓自己不把全部精力放在說唱上
This life don't come with retiring plans
好像有著倖存者的罪惡感
It'll come to an end in unfortunate ways
當我看到兄弟們還在做著那些生意
No such thing as positive thinkin', when you're locked in, it feel like a maze
但他們的生活沒有未來
Often lose faith and forget to pray
跌入谷底的一天總會到來
You don't wanna land on the wing with the guys
當你在困境中不可能會有正能量，像被困在迷宮裡
Why? 'Cause they might melt your face
會失去信念，忘記禱告
Cuz got hit with a eight, why?
你難道不想成功嗎
Why would he care bout some extra days?
為什麼，是因為你不願經歷痛苦嗎

是因為不願挑戰困難嗎
[Chorus]
為什麼不為了成功多付出幾天呢
I don't wanna seem ungrateful, God
But I don't wanna be here
I got some things to get off my chest
[Chorus]
But maybe it's best I keep it a secret
我不想看起來像一個忘恩負義的人
31st December, the 1st of Jan
但是我也不想出現在這裡
Same shit, I don't care bout the new year
有些話我想說出來
New house somewhere that ain't poverty driven
但也許把它當作秘密會更好
It's mad in the place that I grew in
從十二月三十一到一月一

新年對我來說只是個節日
[Verse 2]
在富人區隨便買套房
Uh, I ain't been home in some weeks
我成長的地方純走瘋狂
I seek when a man's in need
I got a family tree to feed
I see dead people in my sleep
[Verse 2]
I see broke people on the feed
我已經好幾週沒回家了
Talk is cheap freedom of speech, I guess
一直在努力工作，像一個男人
But they ain't even got no P's
我還得養家糊口
Got free Wi-Fi, they ain't got 4G
每晚都夢到死去的他們
Uh, I wouldn't be able to do what I do if it weren't for the man before me
每天都能在頭條上看到破產的他們
I show respect where it's due
交流只是廉價的言論自由罷了
Where would I be if I never met YBeeez?
但他們身無分文又怎麼能做到真正理解
Giggs, Ghetts, Chip, Skep, Konan, Krept
哥們儿連wifi的時候他們甚至沒有4G
Kane or Dev, Stormz, Hus, Dave
但如果沒有前輩我也無法到達現在的位置
A couple of names, even DBE
所以哥們儿永遠尊重該被尊重的人
Uh, my mum lost faith in her son when I left school with no GCSE's
如果沒有遇見YBeeez我現在又會在哪呢
Told shorty 'Just 'cause I grew up with nothin' doesn't mean I'm easy to please'
Giggs, Ghetts, Chip, Skep, Konan, Krept （英倫rapper們）
When you need a handout, you don't get help
Kane or Dev, Stormz, Hus, Dave（英倫rapper們）
Why do you all wanna help? I ain't even in need
還有更多兄弟，甚至DBE（英倫rapper們）
Had one score for an hour of studio time, I couldn't even lease the beat
當我初中沒畢業退學的時候，媽媽早就對我失去信心
Do not disturb me when I' m recordin'
告訴那個妹妹“雖然我曾經一無所有但不代表你可以糊弄我”
My voice sounds clearer than ever, uh
你需要哥的施捨的時候，我不可能會幫你
Remember they might distortin', I grew in a different era
為什麼現在都來求我的幫助，哥真的不在乎
More action, less talkin', he said I'm a dead man walkin '
那時候的哥們儿甚至買不起伴奏
One in your head, there ain't no respawnin, alright
哥們儿錄音帶時候別來煩我

哥們儿的吐字不能再清晰
[Chorus]
記住他們可能看不起我，那是因為我們之間的代溝
I don't wanna seem ungrateful, God
少說多做，他說我像行屍走肉
But I don't wanna be here
記住四個大字，哥對你不可能尊重
I got some things to get off my chest
But maybe it's best I keep it a secret
31st December, the 1st of Jan
[Chorus]
Same shit, I don't care bout the new year
我不想看起來像一個忘恩負義的人
New house somewhere that ain't poverty driven
但是我也不想出現在這裡
It's mad in the place that I grew in
有些話我想說出來