Ungrateful

[Intro]
I don't wanna seem ungrateful, God
[Intro]
But I don't wanna be here
我不想看起来像一个忘恩负义的人
I got some things to get off my chest
但是我也不想出现在这里
But maybe it's best I keep it a secret
有些话我想说出来
31st December, the 1st of Jan
但也许把它当作秘密会更好
Same shit, I don't care bout the new year
从十二月三十一到一月一
New house somewhere that ain't poverty driven
新年对我来说只是个节日
It's mad in the place that I grew in
在富人区随便买套房

我成长的地方纯走疯狂
[Verse 1]
Served a pregnant lady, it ****ed in my head
Couple things I regret tryna earn a wage
[Verse 1]
48 Laws, one book that I read
那些怀孕的女人让我头疼
So if I rеpent can I turn the page?
对不起那些让我为了利益放弃的人
Gotta gеt rid of bad vibes, anti-clockwise, gotta burn the sage, uh
哥们儿最喜欢的书，48 Laws
I'll say with it chest but I know some things locked in, I prefer not to say
如果虔诚忏悔，上帝会原谅我吗
I fked up, I'm admittin' it
需要push the pppppp，正能量老铁！
I got no ego, I got no shame
哥们儿的心里话说出来可能会影响到他们，我宁愿不说
I swallow my pride and say that I'm missing it
我承认我搞砸了
Creep in the changing room at school and thief from the kids that are privileged
但我并不自负，赚钱也并不丢人
Stolen clothes with a rip in it
我把我的自负心藏起来，虽然更想念曾经的自己
Also a stolen phone no sim in it
躲在更衣室的我，偷富二代同学的我
Now I got P's, I give a lot back
偷来的衣服上的裂口
No charity work tryna write off tax
偷来的没插卡的手机
Feds got me on a driving ban
现在我能做的只有回报
In the passenger seat till my license back, uh
为了逃税从不支持慈善机构
Ghost and fly off the map, uh
虽然哥们儿驾照被吊销
Try get my mind off rap
但是我不缺小弟开车
I get some sort of survivors guilt
现在我走向全世界
When I see YM's still supplying crack
试着让自己不把全部精力放在说唱上
This life don't come with retiring plans
好像有着幸存者的罪恶感
It'll come to an end in unfortunate ways
当我看到兄弟们还在做着那些生意
No such thing as positive thinkin', when you're locked in, it feel like a maze
但他们的生活没有未来
Often lose faith and forget to pray
跌入谷底的一天总会到来
You don't wanna land on the wing with the guys
当你在困境中不可能会有正能量，像被困在迷宫里
Why? 'Cause they might melt your face
会失去信念，忘记祷告
Cuz got hit with a eight, why?
你难道不想成功吗
Why would he care bout some extra days?
为什么，是因为你不愿经历痛苦吗

是因为不愿挑战困难吗
[Chorus]
为什么不为了成功多付出几天呢
I don't wanna seem ungrateful, God
But I don't wanna be here
I got some things to get off my chest
[Chorus]
But maybe it's best I keep it a secret
我不想看起来像一个忘恩负义的人
31st December, the 1st of Jan
但是我也不想出现在这里
Same shit, I don't care bout the new year
有些话我想说出来
New house somewhere that ain't poverty driven
但也许把它当作秘密会更好
It's mad in the place that I grew in
从十二月三十一到一月一

新年对我来说只是个节日
[Verse 2]
在富人区随便买套房
Uh, I ain't been home in some weeks
我成长的地方纯走疯狂
I seek when a man's in need
I got a family tree to feed
I see dead people in my sleep
[Verse 2]
I see broke people on the feed
我已经好几周没回家了
Talk is cheap freedom of speech, I guess
一直在努力工作，像一个男人
But they ain't even got no P's
我还得养家糊口
Got free Wi-Fi, they ain't got 4G
每晚都梦到死去的他们
Uh, I wouldn't be able to do what I do if it weren't for the man before me
每天都能在头条上看到破产的他们
I show respect where it's due
交流只是廉价的言论自由罢了
Where would I be if I never met YBeeez?
但他们身无分文又怎么能做到真正理解
Giggs, Ghetts, Chip, Skep, Konan, Krept
哥们儿连wifi的时候他们甚至没有4G
Kane or Dev, Stormz, Hus, Dave
但如果没有前辈我也无法到达现在的位置
A couple of names, even DBE
所以哥们儿永远尊重该被尊重的人
Uh, my mum lost faith in her son when I left school with no GCSE's
如果没有遇见YBeeez我现在又会在哪呢
Told shorty "Just 'cause I grew up with nothin' doesn't mean I'm easy to please"
Giggs, Ghetts, Chip, Skep, Konan, Krept （英伦rapper们）
When you need a handout, you don't get help
Kane or Dev, Stormz, Hus, Dave（英伦rapper们）
Why do you all wanna help? I ain't even in need
还有更多兄弟，甚至DBE（英伦rapper们）
Had one score for an hour of studio time, I couldn't even lease the beat
当我初中没毕业退学的时候，妈妈早就对我失去信心
Do not disturb me when I'm recordin'
告诉那个妹妹“虽然我曾经一无所有但不代表你可以糊弄我”
My voice sounds clearer than ever, uh
你需要哥的施舍的时候，我不可能会帮你
Remember they might distortin', I grew in a different era
为什么现在都来求我的帮助，哥真的不在乎
More action, less talkin', he said I'm a dead man walkin'
那时候的哥们儿甚至买不起伴奏
One in your head, there ain't no respawnin, alright
哥们儿录音带时候别来烦我

哥们儿的吐字不能再清晰
[Chorus]
记住他们可能看不起我，那是因为我们之间的代沟
I don't wanna seem ungrateful, God
少说多做，他说我像行尸走肉
But I don't wanna be here
记住四个大字，哥对你不可能尊重
I got some things to get off my chest
But maybe it's best I keep it a secret
31st December, the 1st of Jan
[Chorus]
Same shit, I don't care bout the new year
我不想看起来像一个忘恩负义的人
New house somewhere that ain't poverty driven
但是我也不想出现在这里
It's mad in the place that I grew in
有些话我想说出来