Getting Older

Its so weird
多麼奇怪啊

Im getting older
年齡愈漸增長
I think Im aging well
我想這份成熟恰到好處
I wish someone had told me, Id be doing this by myself
希望有人曾告訴過我接下來我只能獨自前行
Theres reasons that Im thankful
有許多理由讓我心存感激
Theres a lot Im grateful for
有許多事情讓我怀揣恩情
But its different when a strangers always waiting at your door
但這可不是說給總是守候在你房門外的狗仔
Which is ironic
真是諷刺啊
Cause the strangers seem to want me more than anyone before (Anyone before)
陌生人們竟會比我熟識的人更迷戀我
Too bad, theyre usually deranged
糟糕的是通常他們都精神錯亂

Last week, I realized I crave pity, when I retell a story
上週當我複述一個故事時我意識到自己渴望人們的同情
I make everything sound worse
從我口中講出的事實總是會更加糟糕
Cant shake the feeling that Im just bad at healing
這感覺無法擺脫想必我只是不擅於癒合傷痛
And maybe thats the reason why each sentence sounds rehearsed
或許這就是為何我說的每句話都像是排演好的
Which is ironic
真是諷刺啊
Because when I wasnt honest, I was still being ignored (Lying for attention just to get neglection)
因為當我表現得不誠實時我依舊會被冷落(用謊言引起注意到頭來還是被眾人忽視)
Now were estranged
如今我們又形同陌路

Things I once enjoyed
曾經我享受做的事情
Just keep me employed now
如今卻彷彿奴役了我
Things Im longing for, someday, Ill be bored of
曾經我無比渴望的事物最終也感到厭煩
Its so weird
多麼奇怪啊
That we care so much, until we dont
曾經那麼關心彼此最終不還是毫不在乎

Im getting older
年齡愈漸增長
Ive got more on my shoulders
肩上擔負的壓力也越來越沉重
But Im getting better at admitting when Im wrong
但我已經越來越善於承認自己的錯誤
Im happier than ever
我比過往任何時候都要快樂
At least thats my endeavor
至少這是我努力得來的成果
To keep myself together and prioritize my pleasure
不讓自己分崩離析優先考慮我是否快樂
Cause to be honest
畢竟誠實地講
I just wish that, what I promise would depend on what Im given (Not on his permission, wasnt my decision)
我只希望我所承諾的能夠取決於我所給予的(而非他的准許並非我的決策)
To be abused
此般被人施虐

Things I once enjoyed
曾經我享受做的事情
Just keep me employed now
如今卻彷彿奴役了我
Things Im longing for, someday, Ill be bored of
曾經我無比渴望的事物最終也感到厭煩
Its so weird, so weird
多麼奇怪啊
We care so much, until we dont
曾經那麼關心彼此不還是毫不在乎
That we care so much, until we dont
曾經那麼關心彼此最終不還是毫不在乎
But next week
但等到下週
I hope Im somewhere laughing, for anybody asking
我希望我能充斥著歡聲笑語以免有人發問
I promise Ill be fine
我保證我會安然無恙
Ive had some trauma, did things I didnt wanna , was too afraid to tell ya, but now I think its time
雖也經歷過傷痛并被不願做的事情綁架害怕向眾人道出這一切但我想時機已經到來