-Interlude-

My most considered, like, 'successful' moment of my life was the worst.
我的一生中被認為是“成功“的時刻實際上是最糟糕的
The most depressed I've ever been.
我真的從未這麼沮喪，低沉
Literally feeling like I'd probably be happier
按理說我應該是開心的
If I was just dead. I got a number one on Billboard ,
那如果我死了我的公告牌上的成績價值又何在
My song is massive right now—like,
現在這歌裡講的東西可能蠻嚴肅的
I may never have a song this big again.
我從未寫過如此沉重的歌
My tour, I think every date sold out except one date.
我的生命旅程中，我想要是把每一個平淡無奇的日子都過完了，是否就會迎來那一天
So I literally had everything that
所以在這之前我一直中規中矩的過日子
I had always dreamed of happening (Yeah) ,
我一直夢想著它會發生
And I felt... I didn't feel happy at all.
但是我真的...我真的一點都不快樂
And so I think what happened was I spiraled really bad,
而且我也覺得那件事會使我像個陀螺般轉個不停，頭腦裡一團亂麻
'Cause I was like, 'I' m here, and if this is it,
因為每當它發生時，我總會說，“嘿，還有我在呢。 “
There's gotta be more for me.
但那可能無法滿足我的需求
'Cause if this is it, like, it's not gonna work.'
因為每當它發生時，這已經不起作用了。