-Interlude-

My most considered, like, "successful" moment of my life was the worst.
我的一生中被认为是“成功“的时刻实际上是最糟糕的
The most depressed I've ever been.
我真的从未这么沮丧，低沉
Literally feeling like I'd probably be happier
按理说我应该是开心的
If I was just dead. I got a number one on Billboard,
那如果我死了 我的公告牌上的成绩价值又何在
My song is massive right now—like,
现在这歌里讲的东西可能蛮严肃的
I may never have a song this big again.
我从未写过如此沉重的歌
My tour, I think every date sold out except one date.
我的生命旅程中，我想要是把每一个平淡无奇的日子都过完了，是否就会迎来那一天
So I literally had everything that
所以在这之前我一直中规中矩的过日子
I had always dreamed of happening (Yeah),
我一直梦想着它会发生
And I felt... I didn't feel happy at all.
但是我真的...我真的一点都不快乐
And so I think what happened was I spiraled really bad,
而且我也觉得那件事会使我像个陀螺般转个不停，头脑里一团乱麻
'Cause I was like, "I'm here, and if this is it,
因为每当它发生时，我总会说，“嘿，还有我在呢。“
There's gotta be more for me.
但那可能无法满足我的需求
'Cause if this is it, like, it's not gonna work."
因为每当它发生时，这已经不起作用了。