I Wonder (feat. Erin Kim)

uh,gowe ,Gifted Of West East,
Uh，Gowe,东西方之结晶
this song is a dedicated
让我把这首歌献给
to a very special woman
一个十分特别的女人
who had me at the tender age of eighteen
那个在十八岁就生下我的女人
I never had a chance to see you
我从没机会见到你
this is a dedicated to you
但这首歌是送给你的
My Ma
妈妈
This is her story(Check it out)
这是她的故事（开始吧）
Verse 1
唱段 1
Her mind was confused with a plus at the tip of the tube
她被身上的那些插着的管子所困惑着
Sick as she threw up with a cup take a sip of abuse
孕吐中却还要忍受那些痛苦
So she gets nervous cause her man left her
她变得不安起来，因为她的男人离开了她
After the *** and he jets she thought that he loved her
OOXX之后他就远走高飞了但是她却以为他依然爱着他
You see shes 18, and shes a bit conscious
这时候的她才十八岁，
About her dress and the reflection of her own image
对自己的穿衣打扮和形象都还有些自己的想法
Timid in speech, shes limited given a week
这种事却难以启口，她害怕的躲在家里一个星期都不敢出门
With her tummy blowing up so that people can see
她的肚子越来越大，大到人们都已经显而易见了
But she decides to keep it, said no to abortion
但是她决定生下这个孩子，她说不会去堕胎
The feet kicks in her stomach comes without a warning
婴儿的脚没有预警地一次又一次地踢她的肚子
She feels the pain though, cause her parents cry
她感受到了疼痛，是因为他的家人在哭泣
And the shame eats her alive when she closed her eyes
她闭上眼睛，感觉羞辱在吞噬着她
Then the day comes, she gives birth to a son
日子终将来临，她生了一个儿子
Kim Sung-Hoon, soon she holds and kisses her love
金星宏，她抱着，亲吻着她的挚爱
Wishing it never ended, taking a mental picture
就让时间定格在这个画面吧
Hoping through her tears that her son would have a better future
她的眼泪中，充满着她的儿子会有一个更好地未来的希望
Chorus
副歌
I wonder if theres a smile on your face
我不知道你的脸上是否常挂微笑
Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace
有时候，我很想念你，也渴望得到你的拥抱
I never could thank you, enough for holding on
我从来没有机会感谢你，我也没有放弃这种想法
Dear mama mama mama, forever, I’ll hold you in my heart
亲爱的妈妈啊，在我心里你永远没有离开过我
Verse 2
唱段 2
So she wonders, what happened to her son next
然后她在想啊，她的儿子将来会怎样
Is there clothes on his back, food on his plate whats the context
他披在身上的衣服是怎样的，盘子里的吃的是什么东西，过得还好吗
The recollection of the day replays in her mindset
又不断回想起以前的日子
And the ways she would try but just never could forget
她想忘记那些但是却怎么也忘不掉
Well he’s okay, and he resides in the states
现在他过得还好，居住在美国
A needle in space in which rain makes it a beautiful place
雨点像针一样刺着这个美丽的地方
Embraced by the culture and he’s loved by all the members
他适应了这个地方的文化还有那些我爱的好朋友们
Until he turns 18 and his world get flipped
直到他十八岁那年的一天，他的世界观颠倒了
He hears that his mom is not actually his and that complications
因为他听说正在抚养他的妈妈并不是他的亲生母亲，那个抚养他的妈妈
Prevented her from having any kids and his real mom
并没有任何自己亲生的孩子（应该是不能生育），而他的真正的母亲
Is actually Korean and she had, to give him up for adoption
是在韩国生下他的，然后她把他遗弃了
Cause she was young and was a student
因为那时她还非常的年轻而且还是个学生
Lost and was confused and, wrestling in the moment
在流言蜚语中迷失，困惑，挣扎
Am I Chinese or Korean? Am I destined in this union?
我是中国人还是韩国人？而我的命运却在美国吗？
And if I am what’s the purpose? I jot it in my verses
我是故意为之的产物吗？我把这些都记在我的歌词里
So I replay it in my mind as I think about you
我不断在脑子里重复想着这些事情，想着你……
Chorus
副歌
I wonder if theres a smile on your face
我不知道你的脸上是否常挂微笑
Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace
有时候，我很想念你，也渴望得到你的拥抱
I never could thank you, enough for holding on
我从来没有机会感谢你，我也没有放弃这种想法
Dear mama mama mama, forever, I’ll hold you in my heart
亲爱的妈妈啊，在我心里你永远没有离开过我
Verse 3
唱段 3
If I could write a letter, and know that you would read it
如果你能读到这封信，我知道你会读到它的
I would tell you that I never once in my heart felt hatred
我只想告诉你我在心里从来没有怪你
Reinstated I would play a song and dance with you
我只想跟你唱一首歌，跟你跳一支舞，如果可以的话
Hold your hand as I thank the Lord for creating you
牵着你的手，然后感谢上苍让你出现了
As strong as you are cause in my mind I can’t fathom
就像你当初我无法想象的那样坚强
The pain and the guilt when all you heard was their gossip
你当时所感受到的那些痛苦和内疚都是那些人的流言蜚语
And still you stuck through it, when they called you foolish
但是在他们觉得你是个可笑的傻瓜的时候你却仍然坚持撑了下来
And with this gift that I possess your probably loved music
我热爱音乐的这个天赋也许就是你给我的吧
I hope you’re doing well, I hope some day you’ll see this
我希望你现在过得很好，我希望将来有一天你可以看见这封信
I hope I mean I really hope that you know Jesus on a deeper level
我希望，说实话我真的希望你可以多了解一些耶稣的事情
Seeking just to know Him better, I hope in perfect timing we can
就是能更好的理解他，我希望在一个适合的时间我们可以
See the reason clearer, I hope you’re smiling now
把话说得更清楚明了，但现在我希望你可以微笑
I hope I cross your mind, I hope you never second guess
我希望我能进入你的世界，我希望你可以敞开心扉
If what you did was right, cause I’m so proud of you
如果你做的都问心无愧，我为你感到骄傲
I love and admire you, so after all these years this is my way of telling you
我爱你，也很崇拜你，这就是我这些年来走过的路，请让我对你诉说
Chorus (x2)
副歌 X2
I wonder if theres a smile on your face
我不知道你的脸上是否常挂微笑
Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace
有时候，我很想念你，也渴望得到你的拥抱
I never could thank you, enough for holding on
我从来没有机会感谢你，我也没有放弃这种想法
Dear mama mama mama, forever, I’ll hold you in my heart
亲爱的妈妈啊，在我心里你永远没有离开过我
I wonder if theres a smile on your face
我不知道你的脸上是否常挂微笑
Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace
有时候，我很想念你，也渴望得到你的拥抱
I never could thank you, enough for holding on
我从来没有机会感谢你，我也没有放弃这种想法
Dear mama mama mama, forever, I’ll hold you in my heart
亲爱的妈妈啊，在我心里你永远没有离开过我