Arose

If I could rewind time like a tape, inside a boombox
倘若我能像倒轉磁帶一樣倒轉我的過去（阿姆2007年年末因為攝入過量美沙酮將近死亡，被送去醫院搶救，這裡說的是阿姆在死亡邊緣時的內心感受）
One day for every pill, or percocet that I ate
一天少吃一顆藥
Cut down on the valium, thatll hurt everything
減少服用安定（一種藥） 這東西把一切都弄壞了
But death is turning so definite, wait
但是沒有如果死亡變得如此清晰
They got me all hooked up to some machine
等等他們把我整個人連接在機器上
I love you, being, didnt want you to know I was struggling
我愛你一直愛你不想讓你知道我之前的掙扎
Feels like Im underwater submerged like a submarine
感覺我像是一艘潛艇正在慢慢沉入海裡
Just heard that nurse say,
剛剛聽到護士說
My liver and kidneys arent functioning
我的肝腎不再運轉了
Been flirtatious with death, skirt-chasing, I guess
我猜這是在跟死亡調情在邊緣追逐打鬧
Its arrivederci, same nurse,
再見了（意大利語） 我聽到剛剛的那個護士說
Just heard say theyre unplugging me
他們要拔掉插頭
And its your birthday, Jade, Im missing your birthday
今天是你的生日Jade（阿姆的小女兒）我錯過了你的生日
Baby girl, Im sorry, I fucking hate when you hurt, Hai
寶貝女兒我很抱歉你難過的時候我真的很難受Hailey
And sweeties, thank you for waiting to open gifts
親愛的你們還在等著和我一起打開禮物啊（阿姆因為這次搶救錯過了和家人的聖誕節）
But, girls, you can just open em,
現在就拆開吧
Dad aint making it home for Christmas
爸爸聖誕的時候回不去了
Wish I had the strength to just blow a kiss
只希望我能有力氣送去個飛吻
I go to make a fist, but I cant make one, Im frozen stiff
我想攥起拳來但是我做不到因為我渾身僵硬
I yell, but nothing comes out, Im crying inside, I shout
我叫喊著但是發不出聲音我在心中哭喊嚎叫
My vocal cords wont permit me,
我的聲帶發不出聲音
I scream, butits not allowed
我大聲尖叫但是沒有用
You put your arm around mama, the karma, wow
我想到你摟著媽媽的樣子這就是命運吧
I just thought about the aisle,
我想到那條走廊
Ill never get to walk us down
咱們還從來沒一起走過
Never see you, graduate in your caps and gowns
也再也沒辦法看見你畢業時穿著禮服戴著帽子的樣子
Its bout to be 2008, hows this happening now?
2008年就要來了怎麼會出這種事？
Ive got so much more to do, and Proof, Im truly sorry
我還有這麼多事情要去做還有Proof 如果我讓你失望了
If I let you down, but this tore me in two
真的很抱歉但是我再也見不到你了
The thought of no more me and you
這事實讓我幾近崩潰
You gave me shoes, Nikes like new for me for school
你給我新的nike鞋讓我去學校
Doody, Im trying, but you, you were the glue that binded
兄弟（阿姆對Proof的暱稱） 我在嘗試但是你是所有事情的核心
So many things, time, Id give anything to rewind it
我願意付出一切只想讓時間逆轉
I had to walk down my halls and constantly be reminded
我不得不走下大廳
By pictures all on my walls
不斷被我牆上的那些照片提醒著
And I couldnt sleep at night cause
我見到你在桌上卻沒能去救你
That image burned in my brain of you on the table
這畫面一直在我腦海中燃燒
Me falling across your body, not able to stand to save you
讓我晚上無法入睡
God, why did you take him?
上帝啊你為什麼要帶走他？
Im tryna keep his legacy alive,
我在試著把他的遺產發揚光大
But Im dying, wheres Nathan?
但是我現在就要死了 Nathan在哪呢？ （Nathan是阿姆的弟弟）
Little ladies, be brave, take care of your mother
我的姑娘們勇敢點照顧好你們的媽媽
Smile pretty for pictures, always cherish each other
要在照相的時候露出甜美的笑容要一直珍惜彼此
Ill always love ya, and Ill be in the back of your memory
我一直愛著你們也會一直在你們的記憶中
And I know youll never forget me,
我知道你們是不會忘記我的
Just dont get sad when remembering
只是在想起我的時候不要難過
And, little bro, keep making me proud
還有小兄弟要一直讓我驕傲
You better marry that girl cause shes faithfully down
最好娶那個女孩她是真心愛你的
And when youre exchanging those sacred vows,
我真的想在現場
Just know that if I could be there
看看你們交換誓言
I would and should you ever see parenthood,
如果你看過為人父母的樣子
I know youll be good at it
我知道你會擅長這個的
Oh, almost forgot to do something, thank my father too
哦差點忘了也要感謝我的父親
I actually learnt a lot from you,
事實上我從你那裡學到了很多
You taught me what not to do
你讓我知道什麼是不能做的
And Mom, wish Id have had the chance
還有媽媽希望我還能有機會
To have one last heart-to-heart honest and open talk with you
和你進行最後一次開誠佈公的交談
Doody, I see you, I go to walk to you
兄弟我看到你了我在走向你
And I can feel my soul leave my body
感受到我的靈魂離開身體
And float across the room
漂浮在這房間裡
Nurses lean over the bed, pulling tubes out
護士們靠著床邊拔出管子
Then the sheet over my head, shut the room down
把床單蓋在我的頭上關閉房間
Girls, please dont get upset,
姑娘們不要煩惱
I see them cheeks soaking and wet
你們抓住我脖子的時候
As you squeeze hold of my neck,
我看見你們臉頰都濕透了
So forcibly, dont wanna let
如此用力不想讓我離開
Me go, pillow drenched, emotional wrecks
枕頭被淚水浸濕情緒接近崩潰
With every second, each closer to death
一秒一秒的接近死亡
But suddenly, I feel my heart begin to beat slow
但是突然之間我感受到心臟重新開始慢慢跳動
Then a breath, machines go
然後我喘過氣來機器開始嗶嗶嗶的作響
Mustve guessedthe cheat codes to this shit
早該想到這破東西的作弊碼的
Im tryna rewind time like a tape, find an escape
我在嘗試著回放時間就像磁帶一樣尋求逃跑的道路
Make a beeline, try and awake
徑直前進
From this dream, I need to re-find
試著從夢境中清醒過來
My inner strength, to remind me
我要重新找回內在的力量
Even if a steep climb I must take
即使要攀登峭壁我也要改正我的錯誤
To rewrite a mistake, Im rewinding the tape
我在把我的磁帶倒放
(I dont want it)
（我不想要這東西了）
Ill put out this last album, then Im done with it
這是我最後的一張專輯了再也不干了（這段07年時阿姆的話）
One hundred percent finished, fed up with it
肯定再也不干了我受夠了
Im hanging it up, fuck it
我把它掛起來靠
Excuse the cursing, baby, but just know
不好意思罵人了寶貝但你要知道
That Im a good person, though they portray me as cold
我是個好人儘管他們說我很冷漠
And if things should worsen, but I bet you they wont
如果事情惡化我可以向你保證他們不會的（這句之前的那些和Castle的歌詞都一樣）
Im pledging to throw this methadone in the toilet
我發誓要把這些美沙酮都丟進廁所
Shred these old letters I wrote
撕掉我寫的這些舊信件
All that old pathetic loathing, closing credits can roll
所有的那些又舊又可憐的聲望可以滾了
Im proud to be back, Im bout to, like a rematch
我很自豪能回歸像複賽一般我就要
Outdo Relapse
用Recovery和MMLP2
With Recovery, Mathers LP2
超過Relapse
Help propel me to victory laps
激勵著我在勝利之後繼續前行
Gas toward them and fast forward the past
加速前進飛快的超過我的過去
Consider the last four minutes as
之前的這四分鐘是我要
The song Id have sang to my daughters
唱給我女兒的歌（這句話剛好到這首歌的四分鐘）
If Id have made it to the hospital
如果我當時沒能在兩小時內趕到醫院這就是我的終曲（當時的醫生說阿姆再晚來兩小時就死了）
Less than two hours later, but I fought it
但是我活下來了
Came back like a boomerang on em
像一個迴旋鏢一樣我又回來了（先離開再回來）
Now a new day is dawning, Im up, Tuesday, its morning
現在到了新一天的黎明我起床了現在是星期二的早晨
Now I know
現在我知道了（倒帶回阿姆在廁所暈倒、被送去醫院之前，原本的他嗑嗨了什麼都不知道，倒帶回去之後，他很清醒，把原本讓他瀕臨死亡的美沙酮衝進了廁所）