Splurge

If I could tell you how I really felt well I really probably wouldn't
At the bottom of the bucket got and bought some **** I shouldn't
And now I'm feeling crooked and my money is spent
Saved up for happiness but I was short by a cent
So I splurged, I couldn't find the words to express
Running circles in my mind till that **** was out of breath
And I just want to feel content but I won't
Cause all this pressure got me tight by the throat
It's just another long night, got home and laughed
Cause driving home going ninety almost crashed
At least someone's got my back
I like to think that it's my father looking down
Pardon my stupidity, I'll come around
And find my way up, back up on my feet maybe catch peace
Get a little bit of sleep
Cause in these troubled times we all looking for some solace
Mama's getting worried, I'ma be fine, I promise
It's hard to keep that hope when you staring at reality
Cause what's real is working nights for your salary
That rough **** in free time gets me thinking
No wonder everybody smoking herb and drinking
When winter comes I'll fold up freeze with the cold
Those dark months in the state are getting old
Maintaining my hope with a focus on the real
Put everything in music so don't ask me how I feel
I used to want to grow up, and now I want to grow down
A fast life always ends in a slow down
And holding to the hope is the everyday struggle
Just want to break free from this everyday bubble
I dream a new life and some complex ****
I'm more than what you heard onmy compact disc
Can't slip, gotta grip to what I truly desire
But trying to finding happiness is making me tired
So I tell it like it is
I'm just a kid
I don't want to end up the way that you did
I got some bigger dreams that a sleep can't give
I'd rather have a smile than a big mansion
So I tell it like it is
I'm just a kid
I don't want to end up the way that you did
I got some bigger dreams that a sleep can't give
I'd rather have a smile than a big mansion