to be without you

It's so hard to be without you
Lying in the bed you are so much to be without
Rattles in my head that empty drum filled with doubt
Everything you lose will always come find its way out
Every night is lonesome and is longer than before
Nothing really matters anymore
It's so hard to be without you
Used to feel so angry now I only feel humble
Stinging from the storm inside my ribs where it thunders
Nothing left to say or really even wonder
We are like a book and every page is so torn
Nothing really matters anymore
It's so hard not to call you
Thunders in my bones out in the streets where I first saw you
And everything was new and colorful it's gotten darker
Every day's a lesson things were brighter before
And nothing really matters anymore
It's so hard to be without you
Everyday I find another little thread of silver
Waiting for me when I wake some place on the pillow
And then I see the empty space beside me and remember
I feel empty I feel tired I feel worn
Nothing really matters anymore