Goodbye

[Verse 1: Joe Budden]
[Verse 1: Joe Budden]
I remember it like it just happened
記憶猶新
I could've sworn it was a dream
我本可以說那是夢
But in reality it hit me like a nightmare
但是現實如夢魘般打擊我
Or at least that's how it seemed
至少看上去如此
I just got a grip on our relationship
我在我們的愛情上起爭端
We was ironing things out, started picking up steam
如熨斗熨燙，愛情起了蒸汽
And when we didn't need it is when it all got heated
當我們厭倦，事件升級
And we both said some things that we probably didn't mean
說出的話並非本意
Then God intervened, guess more was at stake
上帝為我們調停，讓孩子降生
Thought we left nothing over, He put more on the plate
上帝覺得我們之間不剩什麼所以天賜豐厚
She came home from the doctor with news I've been wanting
她帶著期盼已久的消息回來
Says family was incoming, she's pregnant, twins coming
說要添新丁，她懷孕了，雙胞胎要到來
But that's gotta be a lie
但那算是個謊言
She sighed, couldn't stop the tears coming from her eyes
她無奈嘆息，淚流不止
That birth control she on, for them it's suicide
早些服下的避孕藥物依然有效，對於腹中的孩子來說是自殺
As long as it's still inside, two of them wouldn't survive
他們無法存活
Hard turn from memorable to cynical
我艱難地從難以忘懷變成憤世嫉俗
Picturing clothes for what would've been identical
幻想著雙胞胎那
Similar outfits, similar names
相似的服裝，相似的名字
My deceased kids' ultrasound in a frame
已故的孩子終究是屏幕上的超聲波
So I'm deprived of my chance to be a better dad
我沒機會成為一個更好的父親
Staring at my twins that I never had
看著那對我從未得到的雙子
I shed a tear, looking up in the sky
擦掉眼淚，仰望天空
Even though y'all just got here, goodbye
即使你已去了天堂，再見
Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell
[Hook]
But it's not the end of the chapter
再見，再見，離別，再會
Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell
但這不是章節的結尾
I'll see you again in the afterlife
再見，再見，離別，再會
[Verse 2: Crooked I]
死後我們會再會
My biological sperm donor, didn't wanna be a daddy
[Verse 2: Crooked I]
So he hopped in his Caddy and turned corners on us
生我的人，不想做我父親
Turned on us out the clear blue
所以他戴著帽子點點頭
His last memory of his son is seeing me through his rearview
離開了我們
I still love him yo, but I love his brother more
對他兒子最後的印像是在後視鏡裡看我
My uncle showed me love no one could know
我依舊愛他，但我更愛他的兄弟
Young and poor with a tougher road
我叔叔給了我別人不了解的愛
To suffer hunger was nothing but Unc' would hold
年幼，貧窮，我有著更艱辛的路
Us down, help mo***ift the motherload
飢餓不算什麼
I got grown and
叔叔一直支持我和母親
I used to wonder what it would be like to speak to pops as a grown man
我長大了
He provided that feeling, told me to take my career into my own hands
我一直在想像個男人一樣和父親談話時什麼樣子
He was there when I had no fans
叔叔給我了那種感覺，告訴我把事業掌控在自己手中
My cellphone rings, and after I answer
沒有歌迷的時候他一直支持著我
A voice says 'Your uncle's been diagnosed with cancer'
電話打來
Worst news in my life
一個聲音說：“你叔叔被診斷出癌症”
Him and chemo going 12 rounds with a disease and they both losing the fight
一生中最沉痛的消息

他和化療與疫病周旋12回合最後還是倒下了
Praying for a miracle， I don't wanna see my idol die
I'm rushing up to Cedars-Sinai 我衝進Cedars-Sinai醫院
Before he did, the look in his eyes
祈禱奇蹟的發生，我不想看到我的偶像死去
Said 'Even though you just got here, goodbye'
在那之前，我看著他的眼睛說
Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell
即使你去了天堂，再見
But it's not the end of the chapter
[Hook]
Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell
再見，再見，離別，再會
I'll see you again in the afterlife
但這不是章節的結尾
I'll see you again in the afterlife
再見，再見，離別，再會
Someday in heaven we will reunite
死後我們會再會
The flesh disappears but the soul survives
死後我們再會
Till next time, my friend, farewell, goodbye
有一天我們會在天堂重聚
[Verse 3: Joell Ortiz]
肉身消失，靈魂永存
I walked in your daughter's house, knowing that you gone
直到下次，我的朋友，再會，再見
But still looking out the corner of my eye, hoping you on the couch
[Verse 3: Joell Ortiz]
That call felt like I was beef that had got shot up
我走進你女兒的房子，知道你已離去

但還是四處觀望，希望你在依舊在長椅

那通電話讓我猶如被槍擊
I caught the next thing soaring out
Ironic, I was on tour with Tech N9ne and Slaughterhouse 諷刺的是我正與Tech N9ne、slaughterhouse巡演
Now I'm in the air, in the midwest somewhere
D tried to talk to me, Crystal rubbed my back, as they was pouring out 他們倒酒時，Crystal拍著我的後背想說些什麼
They said turbulence was severe, I don't know what they talking bout
我馬不停蹄趕上飛機
I ain't feel a bump, body numb, mind drifting
在中西部上空飛行
I'm sniffling, asthma acting up, I'm whistling
乘客們談論某處動T亂多嚴重，我不知道他們在說些什麼
I'm wishing my mother's face looked so much different
我感覺不到飛機上氣流顛簸，身體麻木，思緒漂流
I'm kissing my son, my aunt pacing in the kitchen
我啜泣，哮喘發作，我吹著口哨
My vision blurry, still I saw your face clear
我希望母親的臉不要如此不同
What a loss, this time I did more than waste beer
親吻我的兒子，阿姨在廚房哭泣
Michelle's strong, she held on, we got all the way there
我視線模糊，卻仍能清晰地看到你的臉
Then we walked in, she fell on the floor, this ain't fair
悲痛的損失，這次我不只是將酒撒到地上
You was the voice when I considered them thoughts that ain't clear
母親很堅強，她堅持著
Hey granny, I was fifth row at the Grammy's
當我們走進房間，她崩潰地跌倒在地上，這不公平

你是我思緒混亂時清晰的聲音

祖母啊，我坐在格萊美嘉賓第五排
I miss the early morning convos, believe me
An award they ain't hand me, but I sat behind Will 雖然沒獲獎，但是我前邊坐著Will Smith

And right in front of Wayne, and got seen by the family 後邊坐著Lil Wayne，家人都看到我了
But you had an all white affair, grandpa's all fly
我懷念那清晨的對話
Even though you been got there , goodbye
Regis on the TV, and the best baked ziti 電視上TV show演著，你做出最好的烤ziti
Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell
但是你傷心，祖父已經走了
But it's not the end of the chapter
即使你去了天堂，再見
Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell
[Hook]
I'll see you again in the afterlife
再見，再見，離別，再會

但這不是章節的結尾