did u mean it when u said u loved me?

Did you mean it when you said you loved me
If its true were still not past the sorrys
Adjusting to a life without you
Stuck here without you without any armor
My heart is wide open theres nothing that guards it
But the knowing the truth of us making it harder to love you
I just want to trust you again but I cant
We had to end and I know it, was moving too fast, perpetual motion
I thought that was us but it wasnt
Its turns out we fronted on telling on our feelings, instead we ran from it
So many things, I wish that I said, that I stomached instead
Its bubbling up, pushed to the top of my head and Ive had enough
I wont tell you I love you no more, cuz you broke that in me
I started hating just being with me, and thats the one person I never could leave
So Im working on picking me up
Unfreeze my feelings from being so numb
We had our time, but Im not the one
Youll never be mine, but we had our fun
Yeah we had our fun
We had our time, but Im not the one
Youll never be mine, but we had our fun
Yeah we had our fun
But why does it feel like Im stuck?
Did you mean it when you said you loved me?
If its true, were still not past the sorrys
Adjusting to a life without you
Did you mean it when you said you loved me?
If its true, were still not past the sorrys
Adjusting to a life without you
I used to just hate on myself so much
All this confidence, I canttouch
I lost it way back at the start
Torn into pieces, decisions that broke me apart
Ive never been healed, and I never will
At least, I quit, taking those pills, that made me not feel anything
Inhaled for a moment to let it all breathe
Figured its time that I finally be who I am
I just turned 23, and
I got the world in the palm of my hands
Know this shit is meant for me, and
I promise to give you all, all that I am
Till the day that Rest In Peace
Stretching my arms, as far as theyll reach
My dreams are my destiny
Did you mean it when you said you loved me?
If its true, were still not past the sorrys
Adjusting to a life without you