I’m Trying (Not Friends)

London 2020
2020年倫敦
Boy and a girl broke up, yeah, it's two a penny
男孩和一個女孩分手了嗯這不稀奇
And I been tryna make a big step forward
而我在努力向前邁出一大步
Saw you, it was awkward
看到你還挺尷尬
Nothing like I thought would happen happened
以為不會有的事情就此發生

I was so in love
我深陷愛河
And that don't come off in the wash
而這難以改變
Kinda hope it does though
有點希望能輕鬆脫身
'Cause you're seeing someone pretty
因為你在跟一個美人約會
And I hate her guts, so
而我討厭她的勇氣
I 'll be telling you she's nice on the bus home
所以我會在回家的車上跟你說她很好

We were bad but we're gonna be good
我們有些問題但我們會變好
It didn't work like we thought it would
事情不如我們預想般進行
And I resent you just a little if I'm honest
若我誠實其實會有點怨恨你
One of us is gonna try to keep a promise
你我間總有一人要守住承諾
And I swore that I'd swallow my pride
發誓我會放下自尊
And you swore you would do better this time
你也發誓這次你會做得更好
Well, I might be bitter and twisted,
嗯或許我既痛苦又扭曲
And broken and petty and lying
又崩潰又小氣還撒謊
But at least I'm trying
但至少我在努力
(At least I'm trying)
至少我在努力
(At least I'm trying)
至少我在嘗試

Three shots, lemon drops
三杯檸檬糖雞尾酒
One for being lost and alone in your early twenties
一杯為在你二十出頭時迷茫又孤獨
One for being obsessed with someone who puts you secondary
一杯為痴迷於某個將你放在第二位的人
One for calling guys with guitars in a cemetery
一杯為聯繫墓地裡拿著吉他的人們
Just me? Okay!
只有我這樣？好吧！
If I'm being frank
若我要坦白
I want a 'sorry' but I'll settle for a handshake
我想要句“對不起” 但握手也能接受
'Cause I'm the baby but I'm gonna be the bigger man babe
因為我還是孩子但我會再成長的
So many blank slates I could build a whole ****ing house
待發展空間多到我都能蓋個房子了(*白板)

We were bad but we're gonna be good
我們有些問題但我們會變好
It didn't work like we thought it would
事情不如我們預想般進行
And I resent you just a little if I'm honest
若我誠實其實會有點怨恨你
One of us is gonna try to keep a promise
你我間總有一人要守住承諾
And I swore that I'd swallow my pride
發誓我會放下自尊
And you swore you would do better this time
你也發誓這次你會做得更好
Well, I might be bitter and twisted,
嗯或許我既痛苦又扭曲
And broken and petty and lying
又崩潰又小氣還撒謊
But at least I'm trying
但至少我在努力
(At least I'm trying)
至少我在嘗試

Not friends
不是朋友
No, we're somewhere in between
不你我介於其間某處
'Cause you 're awful and I miss you and I killed you in my dream last night
因為你很糟我想念你昨晚夢裡我還殺了你
Even then you didn't care
即便那時你毫不在意
It's a low when even in my dreams you still don't want me there
難過的是就算在我夢裡你也並不想要我
Got friends
我有朋友
Got at least a healthy five
至少能有五個
Yeah, some people think I'm funny, baby, don't look so surprised
有的人覺得我很有趣寶貝別那麼驚訝
We think that your girlfriend is a bore
我們覺得你女朋友是個無趣的人
But we're nice to her in public cause we're grown up and mature
但我們在公眾場合對她很好因為我們是成熟大人了
Not friends
不是朋友
'Cause when I asked you on the train
因為我當在列車上問你
Why you hurt me and you couldn't really actually explain
你為什麼傷害我你無法真正回答
I cried, then I told you it was cool
我哭了然後對你說沒事
But you haven't changed at all
但你根本沒有改變

We were bad but we're gonna be good
我們有些問題但我們會變好
It didn' t work like we thought it would
事情不如我們預想般進行
And I resent you just a little if I'm honest
若我誠實其實會有點怨恨你
One of us is gonna try to keep a promise
你我間總有一人要守住承諾
And I swore that I'd swallow my pride
發誓我會放下自尊
And you swore you would do better this time
你也發誓這次你會做得更好
Well, I might be bitter and twisted,
嗯或許我既痛苦又扭曲
And broken and petty and lying
又崩潰又小氣還撒謊
And you might be awful like all of the time, yeah
而你或許會一直都很糟糕
It's almost inspiring
這幾乎算是激勵
But at least I'm trying
但至少我在努力
(At least I'm trying)
至少我在努力
(At least I'm trying)
至少我在嘗試
音頻工程師: Joe Rubel/Maisie Peters/Matt Glasbey
混音師: Dan Grech-Marguerat
吉他: Joe Rubel
編程: Matt Glasbey
附加製作: Jim-E Stack
鼓編程: Joe Rubel
和聲: Maisie Peters
母帶工程師: Stuart Hawkes
人聲: Maisie Peters