the cure & the poison

Its the payoff the reward
The release from all the tension
The biggest vice in my life and it adds a new dimension
Its the beauty and the beast
Its my fall and its my saviour
A good excuse for self abuse that changes my behaviour
I love it and I loath it with a passion thats superior
It ***** with my emotions and it makes me feel inferior
It breaks me down and then builds up a wonderful illusion
That brings out my emotions and adds to the confusion
Its not a problem I can do just fine without it
But I wouldnt chance it thats the ***** * up thing about it
It pulls me in and spits me out without a second warning
It puts me right out in the cold
While its busy warming
Its a hopeless competition and theres no way I can win it
But I never tend to see the signs while Im stuck right in it
I play the game and lose the game
Theres no way to avoid it
cos Im too busy *** **** up pretending Ive enjoyed it
The cure and the poison
The loss and the gain
Escaping once again
The cause and solution
The pleasure and pain
All run through my veins
All I need is just one more I promise Ill be fine
Its really just a harmless way for me to kill some time
Ill sit back and lose my track and work hard on a case
It helps me blur out all the sharpest edges in this place
It always gets the best of me while being etnertaining
But in the end theres not a single ounce of sense remaining
I scrapemyself up off the floor and mend the broken pieces
And do it all again - the vicious cycle never ceases
The cure and the poison
The loss and the gain
Escaping once again
The cause and solution
The pleasure and pain
All run through my veins