Hope of Morning

My minds a kaleidoscope, it thinks too fast
思維就像萬花筒一樣，運轉得目不暇接
Blurs all the colors til I cant see past
模糊了所有色彩，使我無法看清過去
The last mistake, the choice I made
最後的錯誤，最後的選擇
Staring in the mirror with myself to blame
凝視著鏡子中的自己
Sometimes Im afraid of the thoughts inside
我時常害怕自己內幕隱藏的想法
Nowhere to hide inside my mind
但腦海中無處可藏
Im scared that youll compare and
我唯恐你會比較
Ill look a lifetime past repair
我這無法彌補的一生
I second guess myself to death,
接著我臆測死亡的到來
I re-solicit every step
悔恨每一步而再次徵求
What if my words are meaningless?
如果我的諾言沒有價值怎麼辦？
What if my hearts misleading this?
如果我的心將我引至錯誤的方向怎麼辦？
I try to capture every moment as it comes to me
我嘗試捕捉發生的每一刻
Bottle up the memories and let them keep me company
讓水晶瓶中的記憶陪伴著我
When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
當晨曦的希望在我心底逐漸消逝時
I dont dare let darkness have its way with me
我不敢接受黑暗
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
是晨曦的希望賦予我奮戰的價值
I will not be giving in tonight
今夜我將不再屈服
When Im old and grey, or thirty,
當我蒼顏白髮，逝於年華
or whatever happens first,
或是噩耗先降示了
Ill need you to reassure me I didnt waste a verse
我需要你來確認我沒有任何疏漏
Or worse, what if my lifes work is reduced to just myself
或者更糟，如果我生命中所有的努力只滿足了我自己
Like never let you get a word in,
比如在我解剖我的心理健康時
while I dissect my mental health
從不聽取你的虔誠
Or lack thereof, whatever, theres too many things to track
或缺乏，無論什麼，有些東西已無法追溯
I really cant remember if Iminsane or insomniac
我真的無法記得我到底是不是瘋狂或徹夜難眠
Now days, all the kids want crazy, wanna diagnose themselves
現在，每個孩童都欲想瘋狂，想要診斷自己
Trade up made up epidemics,
高價物流編造的流行病
pass around prescription pills
到處遞著的處方藥
But my disorder cant be cured
但是我的病症無法被
by a bottle, blade, or dose
滴瓶，手術刀或藥劑治療
Self-disgust and selfishness tend to hold me awfully close
自私和自我厭惡的情緒往往如風圍繞著我
But I dont wanna let you see that,
但是我不想你看到
I dont want my friends to know
也不想給朋友知道
Self-disgust and selfishness take me everywhere I go
不管我去哪，自私和自我厭惡都如影隨形
When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
當晨曦的希望在我心底逐漸消逝時
I dont dare let darkness have its way with me
我沒有勇氣接受黑暗的同行
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
是晨曦的希望賦予我奮戰的價值
I will not be giving in tonight
今夜我將不再屈服
Try as I might to keep it together
盡全力將一切美好維持
Why is recovery taking forever
為什麼恢復如此漫長永無止境？
Fool the whole world, just until I get better
欺騙全世界，直到我感到好一些
Im terrified Ill be faking forever
我嚇壞了，我將永遠演下去
On and on I wonder what went wrong inside my head
無了無休的探求，我腦子裡到底出了什麼故障
I dont have to have the answers, but tonight I wish I did
我不是一定要尋求答案，但是我還是希望今晚可以窮盡
All the pain I cant explain away wont fade
所有我無法解釋的痛苦不會被麻痺
All the secrets silenced by the shame
所有秘密都會因為羞恥而悄無聲息
Dont make me say it
別讓我說出口
Dont make me say it
我不想說出口
When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
當晨曦的希望在我心底逐漸消逝時
I dont dare let darkness have its way with me
我沒有勇氣接受黑暗的同行
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
由是晨曦的希望賦予我奮戰的意義
I will not be giving in tonight
今晚我不會倒下也不會屈服！