Falling

Yeah
是的
Lately, I'm hurtin' the people who love me the most (Damn)
最近，我在傷害那些最愛我的人（該死）
My emotions take over , it's something I can't control
我的情緒佔據了上風，我無法控制
I look in the mirror like where's the me I used to know?
我望向鏡子，想看看曾經的那個我在哪裡？
Because right now, I can use him the most
因為現在，我非常需要他
Yeah, I can use him the most
是的，我非常需要那個曾經的我
Damn, when did my heart become so bitter and cold? (Cold)
該死的，我的心什麼時候變得這麼痛苦和冰冷？ (冰冷)
When did I start walking down this lonely road? (Road)
我什麼時候開始走上這條孤獨的路？ (路)
There's parts of my life that I'm too afraid to show
我生命中的一些部分，我不敢展示出來
There's parts about me I'm embarrassed to know
還有一些部分，讓我自己都感到尷尬
When they stop caring, I started carrying this load
當他們不再關心的時候，我開始背負這個負擔
No one understand what my life is like
沒有人理解我的生活是什麼樣子
I'm still looking out for the brightest night
我仍在尋找最明亮的夜晚
I been fighting so much, doubt when I' d try to write
我一直在掙扎，不知道什麼時候才能開始創作
I'm paralyzed, and I feel stuck inside my mind
我麻痺了，感覺我被困在了自己的腦海裡
You're fearing I'm going crazy, I think I just might
你擔心我會瘋掉，我想我可能真會瘋掉
You should probably stay away and take my advice
你也許應該聽從我的建議，遠離我
I been through dark days, I can't find a light
我經歷過黑暗的日子，找不到一絲光明
If you look at me you wouldn't see a sign of life
如果你看著我，你不會看到任何生命的跡象
I don't know how I got this way, I just am this way
我不知道我怎麼會變成那樣的，還是我本來就是那樣的人
Judge all you want, but you don't know my pain
隨你怎麼評價，反正你也不會知道我的痛苦
Depression got me feelin' like I can't be saved
抑鬱症讓我覺得自己無法被拯救
No, I can't be saved
是的，我不能被拯救。
So what if I said, '**** it' and picked up a gauge, and pressed the trigger to my head and blast my brains
那麼，如果我說，'去他媽的'，然後拿起一把槍，對著我的頭扣動扳機，把我的腦袋打爆，那會怎麼樣呢？
Actin' like you were there for me, now care for me
假裝你曾經在我身邊，現在還在關心我
When I'm gone and I'm in my grave, *** *
當我走了，我躺在我的墳墓裡，他媽的
Lately, I just wonder if I'll come around
最近，我只是想知道我是否振作起來
'Cause I don't wanna lose me
因為我不想失去自己
I'm sorry that I fallen and I've let you down
我很抱歉，我墮落了，我讓你失望了
But I don't wanna lose me
但我真的不想失去自己
I've falling, I've falling, I fell again
我墜落了，我墜落了，我還在墜落
I fell, I fell, I fell
我墜落，我墜落，不停墜落
I fell, I fell, I'm falling again
我在墜落，我在墜落，我再一次墜落
I need therapy to figure out what my problem is
我需要心理治療來弄清楚我的問題
I'm done going online, it's eating away at my confidence
我已經不再上網了，它正在侵蝕我的自信
It's like I search for the hate, and ignore all the compliments
我好像在搜尋仇恨，而忽略了所有的褒獎
I'm done reading the comments 'cause I'm getting tired of it
我也不再看評論了，我已經厭倦了
Yeah, man, I'm getting tired of it
是的，伙計，我已經厭倦了
Damn, when I'm being me I feel like I'm being somebody else (Else)
該死的，當我做我自己的時候，我覺得我是在做別人
I'm surrounded by people, but feel like there's nobody else (Else)
我周圍都是人，但卻感覺空無一人
Nobody comes to rescue me when I'm calling for help
當我呼救的時候，沒有人來救我
I swear my mind is a tormented place, I sit and I dwell, hammer in the nail
我發誓我的思想是一個令人痛苦的地方，我坐著，發著呆，敲打著釘子
How the **** did I garner millions of comments of people telling me I'm great?
我以前是如何獲得數百萬人的評論，告訴我我很棒的？
But I don't believe it, but I believe in the ones giving me hate
但我卻不相信那些讚美我的人，我只相信那些憎惡我的人
It's like I look for validation for an idea in my mind that I already made
這就像我在驗證我腦海中本來的想法一樣
When did I tell myself I wasn't worthy, I'm undeserving
我什麼時候告訴的自己，我不值得，我不配這一切
Let critics hurt me, I feel like a fake
讓批評者傷害我吧，我覺得自己就是個騙子
I swear my mind is a trap and my heart is the prey
我發誓我的思想是一個陷阱，我的心就是那個獵物
Someone take my social media away
有人把我的社交媒體拿走了
I'm on it for days, I read and I rage
我已經在刷了好幾天了，我越看越憤怒
There's nothing to say, I'm losing my way
沒有什麼可說的，我正在迷失方向
I'm losing my strength , I'm losing my faith
我正在失去我的力量，我正在失去我的信仰
My insecurities that keep me awake
我的不安全感，讓我難以入睡
I' m stuck in this paradigm that I know that I'm dying to escape, damn
我被困在這個模式裡，我知道我拼命的想逃離，該死的
Lately, I just wonder if I'll come around
最近，我只是想知道我是否振作起來
'Cause I don't wanna lose me
因為我不想失去自己
I'm sorry that I fallen and I've let you down
我很抱歉，我墮落了，我讓你失望了
But I don't wanna lose me
但我不想失去自己
I've falling, I've falling, I fell again
我墜落了，我墜落了，我還在墜落
I fell, I fell, I fell
我墜落，我墜落，不停墜落
I fell, I fell, I'm falling again
我在墜落，我在墜落，我再一次墜落
I'm at war with myself, I'm battling me everyday
我在和我自己戰鬥，我每天都在和我自己作鬥爭
And I never win, this is a battle of strength
我從未贏過，這是一場力量的較量
I overthink till I'm numb, I think I need a break
我想得太多直到自己麻木，我想我需要休息一下
Because right know, I'm losing my way
因為我知道，我正在失去我的方向
Yeah, I'm losing my way
是的，我正在迷失
Yeah, I'm causing my misery, and maybe I'm the one to blame (Blame)
是的，我自己造成了自己的痛苦，也許我才是罪魁禍首。
If I feel sorry, that means I don't gotta change (Change)
如果我感到遺憾，這意味著我不必改變（改變）
I'm dealing with demons that I was unwilling to face
我正在和我不願意麵對的惡魔糾纏
I was looking for fame to try to cover the fact
我只是想出名來掩蓋事實
That I'm an act, I can't out run from my mistakes
我只是在演戲，我無法逃避我的錯誤
I'm running from myself, but obviously running away from me is so worthless
我在逃避自己，但顯然逃避自己是毫無意義的
I had to pry open my soul, and I had to look way deeper under the surface
我必須撬開我的靈魂，我必須掀開表面看到更深的地方
I should of been me , but instead of being me I was too busy trying to be perfect
我本應該做回我自己，但我沒有做到因為我太過於追求完美
Now they want me to be perfect
現在他們想讓我變得完美
Faking it's become a burden
而偽裝已經成為我的負擔
I'm losing my patience, going through phases
我失去了我的耐心，在經歷了一些階段後
I ****ing hate myself
我他媽的恨我自己
Why I am chasing, using my fame when, I can't escape myself?
為什麼我都已經無法逃避自己了，還去追逐什麼名聲？
I'm feeling anxious, who do I blame when, I can't blame myself?
我感到焦慮，如果不能責備自己那我又該責備誰？
Fans said, 'I save them', how can I save them?
粉絲們說，'我救了他們'，我怎樣才能救他們呢？
I can't save myself, ****
我連自己都救不了，他媽的
Lately, I just wonder if I'll come around
最近，我只是想知道我是否振作起來
'Cause I don't wanna lose me
因為我不想失去自己
I'm sorry that I fallen and I've let you down
對不起，我墮落了，我讓你失望了
But I don't wanna lose me
但我不想失去自己
I've falling, I've falling, I fell again
我墜落了，我墜落了，我還在墜落
I fell, I fell, I fell
我墜落，我墜落，不停墜落
I fell, I fell, I'm falling again
我在墜落，我在墜落，我再一次墜落