sting of honesty

Feel so so far away from consciousness in this bed
Try to list off wanted things
But the storys cut short, the end
The trouble of thinking
Has proved to be too much
Theres no more dreams to crush
Head filled up with a heart half empty
Senses come undone
Do you believe in yourself?
That thought was always so foreign
Who knows?
Sting of honesty from the whiplash
Sat back watching from a distance
Out of body this experience is
Nothing as expected
Grasping for a breath of fresh air
But the smog is getting stale
Cause the less there was to know
The happier I was
Taken back, looking at
Everything there is to offer
Not much to stand on
Like whats the point
When nothings pure at all?
Sitting here waiting
For you to come make me something I say Im not
Out of body and out of my mind
I wish somebody would say ill be fine
Wouldnt care if its a lie
Yeah I know I made it so far
Im still weak and Ive tired so hard
To fight off all the feelings that Ive
Carried in my heart
Overthinking bout my past mistakes
I wanna fade away into a void of nothingness
War of habit, I wont give control
I still break down from time to time
But I got no more tears to cry
Taken back, looking at
Everything there is to offer
Not much to stand on
Like whats the point
When nothings pure at all?
Sitting here waiting
For you to come make me something I say Im not