waste of space

Still ***** up
腦袋依舊昏沉
Dont approach me when Im rolling up
在我恢復清醒前不要碰我
Gold blunt guts in the platinum cup
白金杯中堆著的僵硬腸道泛著噁心黃色
I kill my lungs and let my body numb
我刺穿自己的肺片以求得身體麻木
Cant feel a thing you could put me in the rain
即便你將我扔在雨中任由沖刷也毫無知覺
Droplets running down my face
傾盆大雨沖洗臉上鮮血
But my skin can not sense a thing
我的皮膚依舊毫無感知
Hold up, hold up
我想堅持下去
Every day Im getting older, older
我日復一日的老去
Every night Im tryna focus , focus
我試圖在深夜安眠
But I cant get it
可是我做不到
Theres something wrong with my head
我的大腦一定出了什麼問題
And I cant explain it
我無法辯解
Im running out of options if I ever had any, try not to panic
我拼盡全力想要冷靜下來
Body itching Im trying to kick it, lifes my bad habit
想要摒除身體對痛的渴望人生果然無望
I cause a scene then Im napping, goodnight
甚至在幻想中得以小憩
I am whats after this life
千帆過盡是何物
We are the Lords of the Flies
我們都是萬惡之源
Sun out on island we ride
我們所在的島嶼上萬物復甦
Lot of people say they do what they dont
人總說身不由己
Never seen you alone in these roads
從未意識到自己的形單影只
Thirty in my pack like a cartridge I blow
年近三十的我如同收集世間情緒
On the shoulder of the mighty river going with the flow
站在濤濤滾滾的大江彼岸
Wait, where I go, I just do what I want
靜候佳音我所做便是我想做
Like, who that is and nobody gonna tell me ****
即便無人告訴我此番道理
No more scraping for the rent
也不會放棄自己的生命
No more stealing for some ****
珍惜現有的閒暇時光
I was always in some ****
我以往自暴自棄
And I swear Id never admit
雖然我無法保證再無下次
That I needed a change of pace to really go and arrange
可是我想要重新規劃自己的人生
My life in some sort of order that doesnt result in pain (what ?)
活著是責任而非痛苦的導火索
Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes
NoRedeemingQualities until Im gone
無法贖回過錯除非離去