Forever

Yo
I know you dont understand my words but you will eventually
You will eventually
Some day
One day

I know you dont understand my words but you will eventually
And when you get older I hope you dont hold this shit against me
I hope you understand I love you more than life itself
And this is nothin but your daddys thoughts when he was feelin empty

And everything aint always what it seems like on the outside
I fought so many tears so that you would never see the outcry
I never wanted kids until I lived and went through hard times
And became a man that fell in love with someone that my heart finds
But you know how that shit go
Young and reckless, different women part time
And I wasnt ready for that life yet, I was in my dark prime
Me and your moms aint get along and she gave me a hard time
I really think that we just crossed paths at the wrong time
I wasnt happy when she said she was pregnant
Probably the worst news of my life, that shit was so depressing
I told her she should get an abortion and I really meant it
Im sorry that I said that shit, yo I was trippin

I know you dont understand my words but you will eventually
And when you get older I hope you dont hold this shit against me
Im sorry, yo

And I never wanted a broken home to raise you from a distance
Yeah Ill admit it, I was scared of that type of commitment
Even hopes of a miscarriage, anything bad that could happen
That'd get me out of that situation, I was livid
I felt like shit about my thoughts, that wasnt me, Im different
Plus I was dealing with some demons that I couldnt live with
I told her she should get an abortion and I really meant it

I know you dont understand my words but you will eventually
And when you get older I hope you dont hold this shit against me
Hope you dont hate me, I was selfish, I hope you forgive me
Hope you forgive me

And I still remember your baby shower like it was yesterday
And to your mom it was special, me, just another day
I wish that you could see the pictures, all the fake phony smilin
Had to pretend that I was happy, deep down I was cryin
Ma asked if I was okay, I turned around and looked away
I was dryin all my tears, look back to say yeah
I was lyin, goddamn, how the hell I get here?
This is it, this supposed to be my life
This aint how I pictured it
I never felt so damn alone, but it was more than often
One of the worst days of my life, and I aint even lyin
We argued when we came home, I blame myself for all this
I think that I was holding a grudge cause she aint get an abortion
Im sorry
Damn

And I know you cant understand my words but you will eventually
And when you get older I hope you dont hold this shit against me
I cant believe I tried to hurt you, I hope you forgive me
Please, please

And everything aint always what it seems likeon the outside
I fight so many tears so that you would never see the outcry
I sacrifice my life so you could live it
Peace, want to give you things my father couldnt give to, me
I think I was raised wrong, and thats just what it is to me
And if you ask him then his ass gon probably disagree
But whatever, whatever
And nothings ever made me cry as much as you , I swear
Your smile gives me motivation and some new ideas
My worst fear is always you not knowing who I am
Cause I been on the road dreamchasing for you out here
I was the first thing that you opened your eyes to
And the last one that you said goodnight to
I went home and cried to
And I bawled my eyes out, and then watched you
Glad I got you, thats a blatant fact
And every negative thing I said I swear I take it back

I know you dont understand my words but you will eventually
And when you get older I hope you dont hold this shit against me
I hope you understand I love you more than I love myself
And this is nothin but your daddys thoughts when he was feelin empty

I was feelin empty
I been feelin empty
I put my emotions in this music when Im feelin empty
I hope you forgive me
Please, please