Sinner, Pt. 2

Produced by Eskupe & Anthro Beats
Yeah, I just cant take this pressure no more
Why I feel like Ive been in this place before
I just cant take no more
I just cant smile like Im still me, I just cant fake no more
I try to be all I can but that wasnt enough for them
We cant find love so we replace it with these drugs again
I drink from this bottle dog its my only friend
Im so scared to be alone again
Fake smile on my face
I just cant keep pretending like I dont pretend
And my little homie's doing twenty five
If God exists why he never try
To show us that this life is more than pain
Cause is hard to live when you're dead inside
And they say I'm worthless cause I ain't a Christian
Like turn a church into a fucking business
They killed Jehovah, didnt leave a witness
And these preachers crooked as these politicians
Politics, religion, I don't see the difference
They crucify me cause I'm speaking different
Who the fuck are they to judge?
Tell me you or you to criticize the way I'm living
40 ounces for the pain
I ain't been the same since I've seen my pops cry
I might be light skin to you
But I'm still a nigga in the cops eyes
They aint stopping til we all die
Mama I just hope you understand
I just couldn't take the pressure
Mama, see I tried my best to be a better man
And you might know my story dawg
But you wont ever know my pain
And she was all I needed
Now this bottle is my Novocain
Trying not to go insane now
Trying not to go insane now
Trying not to go insane
They say lately I aint been the same
But they wont ever know my pain
And I know lately I aint been the same
I just never really show my pain, my pain
Yeah, man I cant feel nothing no more
Fake love dont cut it no more
Homie, Ive been drinking so much
Nothing staying in my stomach no more
I cant even feel the pain inside
I cant keep living in a lie
Yeah, I might be breathing just like everybody else
But I still dont feel alive
Every night man, I hear a pistol poppin
Make me feel like God aint really watching
Watch out for the snakes, they steady plottin
They wanna put you in a cage or in a coffin
Now a days, these cops just wanna kill
No love in the streets, dont wanna feel
What I felt when I heard my lil brother passed
Ill never get him back
But yo I still, know his soul is still roamin on the streets
Now I just hope hes watching over me
Now I just keep on praying
Ive been trynna talk to God but these demons never leave
I know I lost myself along the way
I was just too scared to fade away
Now they all keep begging me to stay
But I cant be here another day
So I drink from this bottle til I feel numb again
Ive been tempted by these drugs again
I know I aint been the same
Momma told me she just wanna see her son again
I just wanna see her smile again
I dont ever wanna see her cry
So I lie and say that Im okay
But, Ive been plottin on my suicide
And you might know my story dawg
But you wont ever know my pain
And she was all I needed
Now this bottle is my novacane
Trying not to go insane now
Trying not to go insane now
Trying not to go insane
They say lately I aint been the same
But they wont ever know my pain
And I know lately I aint been the same
But I just never really show my pain, my pain
I just dont show my pain