emotionally decapitated by the guillotine

Here i am again with the blade at my throat
Nothing goes right and i lost all my hope
How to kill yourself without a gun or a rope
Love a girl that points at you and calls you a joke
Welcome to my world, this happens a lot
Lost more than money ever bought
I can only talk about my feelings to my dogs
I don't believe in the idea of a god
Emotionally decapitated by the guillotine
All the pain slowly killing me
Every blade is still in me
God is just not real to me
Why are girls so ******* mean
Stepping on my hopes and dreams
The end result is a broken me
Everything took its toll on me