Hangman

This a warnin' for the ones who say they aren't afraid
這是對那些說他們不害怕的人的警告
Lately I've been comin' from a darker place
最近我從一個更黑暗的地方來
I've been dealin' with depression, I'm more dangerous than ever
我一直在和抑鬱做鬥爭，我比以前更危險了
I've been drinkin' again and never felt better
我又喝酒了，感覺好極了
I swear to God that I'ma burn a bridge and piss on the flames
我向上帝發誓，我要燒毀一座橋，在火焰上撒尿
Mix the ash with some whiskey and spit it all in they face
把煙灰和一些威士忌混合起來，吐在他們的臉上
My new girl probably flip if you've got somethin' to say
如果你有話要說，我的新女友可能會發瘋
She reminds me of myself when I would drink everyday
她讓我想起我每天喝酒的時候
I used to feel like how I felt was just a temporary phase
我曾經覺得我的感覺只是一個暫時的階段
But now I feel like the feelings are ******' feeding off fame
但現在我覺得這種感覺是在靠名聲吃飯
And I don't plan to slow down or give it a second to breathe
我不打算慢下來，也不打算讓它喘口氣
I push the pedal past the breaking point, I'm pickin' up speed
我把踏板踩過了極限，我加速了
In 2016, swear I came apart at the seams
2016年，我發誓我崩潰了
I was scared of the dark and therefore afraid of my dreams
我害怕黑暗，所以害怕我的夢
But I rebuilt what came apart with iron alloy and beams
但我用鐵合金和鋼樑重建了破碎的部分
Come fly a plane into my legs and I won't fall to my knees
開飛機撞我的腿，我不會跪下來
Haven't taken any pills to calm me down for a month
我已經一個月沒吃什麼藥了
I'm on the edge and I'm waiting for any reason to jump
我在邊緣，我在等待任何跳下去的理由
Don't take it lightly, I'm excited when they throwin' a punch
別等閒視之，他們一揮拳我就興奮
I got a list of different strategies to bury these bums
我有一系列不同的策略來埋葬這些混蛋
Very rarely do I carry all the weight of a grudge
我很少會懷恨在心
But I been barely ordinary since the prairies and drugs
但自從大草原和毒品以來，我幾乎不是個普通人
My imaginary friends in camouflage with some guns
我想像中的朋友們用槍偽裝
And I've been fairly military but my army is one
我一直都是軍人，但我的軍隊就是其中之一
They've been passive aggressive with how the deal with my message
他們對如何處理我的信息一直很被動
They lack the passion and reckless nature of truthful expression
他們缺乏真誠表達的激情和魯莽本性
They ain't made of what I'm made from,
他們不是用我的身體做成的，
They been bruised up and dented
他們被打得傷痕累累
They don't understand the underhanded ruthless obsession
他們不理解這種卑鄙無情的痴迷
That I was born with, slammed like the door sticks
我生來就有的，就像門上的棍子一樣砰地一聲關上了
Closet full of skeletons,
滿櫃子的骷髏
So heavy couldn't move them with a forklift
這麼重的東西用叉車都搬不動
Your ***** probably fell in love 'cause you forced it
你的***很可能因為你的強迫而墜入愛河
Now she bump my records while you deep inside a porn binge
現在她在你沉迷於色情的時候偷我的唱片
I woke up with a buzzin' in my head
我醒來時腦子裡嗡嗡作響
I don 't wanna leave the comfort of my bed
我不想離開我舒適的床
A dozen missed calls from a dozen of my friends
十幾個朋友的電話都沒接
And my day just started but it's comin' to an end
我的一天才剛剛開始，就要結束了
Already gettin' dark, wake up with the stars
已經入夜，伴著星星醒來
I don't even know how I got home after I left the bar, yeah
我甚至不知道離開酒吧後我是怎麼回家的
I did eight months sober, and I hate that it's over
我戒酒八個月了，我恨它結束了
But the weight on my shoulder started breakin' my heart
但我肩上的重量開始讓我心碎
I started out with one or two, and then I moved to three or four
一開始我只有一兩個，後來我發展到三四個
And then I realized that I was back where I had been before
然後我意識到我又回到了以前的地方
Ativan's gone missin' from the bottle
Ativan從瓶子裡跑掉了
Tell my doctor they were stolen,
告訴我的醫生是偷來的
But I know that they were swallowed
但我知道它們是被吞下的
Everything I ever did was always done with open throttles
我做過的每件事都是開著的
All the way or nothin', non-commitment is a broken promise
無論如何，不承諾就是違背承諾
And I know that that's a problem in itself
我知道這本身就是個問題
But you're livin' or you're dyin ' or you're cryin' out for help, yeah
但你要么活著，要么死去，要么哭著尋求幫助
It's been a week since I've felt like me
我已經一個星期沒感覺像我自己了
I've been starvin' but I just can't eat
我餓了，但就是吃不下
I'm exhausted but I can't find sleep,
我很累，但我無法入睡，
It's been harder than it's ever been
這比以往任何時候都要困難
The darkness hasn't ever dimmed, the light's so bleak
黑暗從未暗淡，光明如此暗淡
I never understood what they meant when they said they were just
我從來不明白他們說他們公正是什麼意思
The shadows of men that they had been before they were beat
他們被打敗之前的影子
Now I know that everything I heard was for real
現在我知道我聽到的一切都是真的
When I'm lookin' in the mirror at a shell of myself
當我看著鏡子裡的自己時
I think that stress is a contributing factor
我認為壓力是一個促成因素
The bein' 28 and feelin' older than dad does
28歲，感覺比爸爸老
The wrinkles on my face spreadin' faster and faster
我臉上的皺紋蔓延得越來越快
If the good die young, I hope I 'm one of the bad ones
如果好人英年早逝，我希望我是壞人之一
The day's long, stay strong and try again tomorrow though
今天很長，保持堅強，明天再試一次
Even if you're runnin' out of reasons to ignore the phone
即使你找不到忽略電話的理由
Even if you're runnin' out of gas, go and borrow more
即使你快沒油了，也要去借更多的油
Your demons knock the hardest
你的心魔是最厲害的
When you finally chose to close the door
當你最終選擇關上門的時候
This not the way my parents raised me
這不是我父母養育我的方式
I hope they realize they didn't fail one of their babies
我希望他們意識到他們沒有讓他們的一個孩子失望
This is the result of a declining social climate
這是社會風氣下降的結果
That's original design was keepin' people trapped inside it
原來的設計是把人困在裡面
Liquor and violence, we suffer in silence
酗酒和暴力，我們默默承受
Until we embrace one another and find our collective defiance
直到我們擁抱彼此，找到共同的挑戰
Will topple the giants, I just try to smile though the cryin'
將巨人推倒，我只是試著在哭泣中微笑
'Cause I know that someone,
因為我知道有人
Somewhere's, feelin' way worse than I am
在某個地方，感覺比我還糟
And that's true (that's true, that's true)
這是真的(這是真的，這是真的)