again...

I'm thinking bout relapsing again
我想著再度墮落
I can't help it I always give in
我節節敗退卻無能為力
I'm scared to fly home
我害怕乘機回家
I'm scared to die when I land
我怕落地時面臨死亡
Cuz I know my plug will be waiting there with open hands
因為我清楚我的夢魘正在那裡張開雙手迎接我
I wanna change I rly do
我真的想要改變
But I can't cuz I dont know who
可我卻做不到因為我不知道改變誰
Who I am
而我又是誰
I wanna be somebody
我想出人頭地
That isn't just a ******* junkie
那絕不僅僅是TM的痴心妄想
But I dont know how to be anything besides me
但我不知道如何扮演跟我毫不相干的角色
And this is me
這才是我吧
This is me
這就是我吧
This is all I wanna be
這就是我所有的期盼
I've never felt so ******* free
我從沒感到過TM的如此自在