Is Happiness Just a Word? (Badtape Remix)

"Is Happiness Just a Word?"
Run(Go ahead and)
奔跑吧（努力地向前狂奔）
Darkness comes beneath the dying stars
黑暗在即将消逝的星光下降临
With all the blood and scars
伴随着所有的鲜血和伤痕降临
I'm gonna hunt you
我即将要去追逐寻找你的足迹
With fear I appear
伴随着恐惧直至我的出现为止
Nothing will stop me
任何事物都将无法阻止我脚步
You creat the
无比强大
Creature in me
我的内心里将会是无比强大的（同上，牵引一句话的本意）
Shattered, I will capture you
哪怕心已破碎身已疲惫，我也定将会找到你
So run
所以努力奔跑吧（追梦的孩子）
My family don't understand what I go through
我的家人根本不了解我的过去
Under diagnosed for 20 years, ain't never broke through
诊断二十年余载却从来没有办法
You ever been in such a fog you don't know you?
你可曾在迷茫中连自己都不认识？
Never being able to do the **** you're supposed to?
永远地不能去做你想要做的事情？
I wouldn't wish it on anyone that I'm close to
我不想身边的任何人参手我的事
Wouldn't wish it on anybody that I'm opposed to
更不希望我厌倦的人做到那些事
There's not an accurate diagnosis to show you
这里没有明确的诊断能替你说明
Basic neurobiology isn't close to it
就连基本的生物学家都不能解释（指的原理，达成人与人之间所愿的交往交流固定定律）
I'm watching life as a spectator
我像个观众一样观望着我的人生
I can't help myself, even though I possessed data
即使拥有统治力也不能救赎自己
It's not a part of my spirit to want to test nature
这不是我灵魂扭曲在做天然实验
You think you know what I'm feeling, cousin, then let's wager
你以为你真的会了解我的感受么，
I'm having trouble retaining new information
我连没发生多久的事都记不清楚
Familiar scenes starting to look foreign- derealization
虚无缥缈的场景似曾相识
Everybody tired of being patient
每个人都对富有耐心而身心疲惫
Mama wondering why her baby crying in the basement
妈妈想知道为何她的孩子在地下哭泣
Constant rumination just exacerbates it
不断思考只会慢慢加重的我病情
To the point where I can't barely narrate it
讲真我确实无法用言语去描述它
I've had doctors tell me that my mind is fascinating
曾经有个医生告诉我的心灵是让人陶醉沉迷的
But they can't tell me why the sickness has been activated
但却不能告诉我为什么我的体内疾病会被激活
Darkness comes beneath the dying stars
黑暗降临在即将消逝的星光下
With all the blood and scars
伴随着所有的鲜血和伤痕到临
I'm gonna hunt you
我即将要去追逐寻找你的足迹
With fear I appear
伴随着恐惧直至我的出现为止
Nothing will stop me
任何事物都将无法阻止我脚步
You creat the
无比强大
Creature in me
我的内心里将会是无比强大的
Shattered, I will capture you
哪怕心已破碎身已疲惫，我也定将会找到你
So run
所以拼命奔跑吧（有梦的孩子）
My head don't work, the meds don't work
我的脑子已坏死，药物没办法治愈了
But I don't want to be dead, dead don't work
但是我不想死掉，死掉就不能微笑了
Sleep's the cousin of death, the bed don't work
睡眠能加快死亡，床对疗伤没有用了
Maybe I'd rather be dead; dead don't hurt
也许我真想死掉，死掉就不会疼痛了
Realization of an inherent emptiness
一种内在的与生俱来的空虚感
Maybe that's another sin for the pessimist
也许这是另一种罪恶的悲观者
Possibly I am a jinn with a exorcist
可能我是一个驱魔人的小精灵
I've fallen because I've been on the precipice
我在堕落因为我身处悬崖边缘
Maybe it's my mama's possible regret
也许就是妈妈对此的悔恨悲痛
Maybe it's a neurological neglect
也许这是一个神经系统的疏忽
Maybe it's the reason why water's wet
也许这可以解释水为何是湿的
The angular gyrus and where the frontal lobe connect
我的神经中枢相互链接处在哪？
But maybe I'm being too complicated for you
但这些可能对你来说太过复杂
Maybe I should just be calm and explain it to you
也许我该冷静一下来向你解释
The psychiatrist thinking they could fool you
那些精神科大夫全是在愚弄你
Paxel, Zoloft, it's just wasteful to you
Paxel.Zoloft. 你只是浪费药物（前两者是两种药物的名字）
I've tried meditation, tried to sit in silence
我已经讨厌了思考，厌倦沉默
But how the **** that help a neurochemical imbalance?
这对我心理扭曲病没任何作用
Why would you tell a person that they were childish
你为何要告诉其他人他们心理是幼稚的
Without an understanding of the pain that they surround in?
没经历过所处的痛苦为何要说他们幼稚
I always feel foggy somatic detachment
我真的感觉不到我的身体器官在活动
It's like my body isn't connected to actions
这真就像我的行为不受大脑控制一样
It destroys everything that's affected the fragments
这种天杀的疾病摧毁了我的一切
I don't have nothing but senses and sadness
除了意识和悲伤之外我一无所有
Darkness comes beneath the stars
黑暗在即将消逝的星光下降临
With all the blood and all the scars
伴随着所有的鲜血和伤痕降临
Nothing will stop me
任何事物都将无法阻止我脚步
The greater creature inside of me
我的内心里将会是无比强大的
Darkness comes beneath the dying stars
黑暗降临在即将消逝的星光下
With all the blood and scars
伴随着所有的鲜血和伤痕到临
I'm gonna hunt you
我即将要去追逐寻找你的足迹
With fear I appear
伴随着恐惧直至我找到它为止
Nothing will stop me
任何事物都将无法阻止我脚步
You creat the
无比强大
Creature in me
我的内心里将会是无比强大的
Shattered, I will capture you
哪怕心已破碎身已疲惫，我也定将会找到你的足迹影踪
So run
所以那些有梦想的孩子，请在最好的年华努力地奔跑吧