does it really matter?

I don't think you understand
我觉得你并不理解
I feel lonely in the crowd
人潮中我感到格格不入
And I don't know why I'm like this
我也不知道我因何如此
But I rather be just by myself
但我更想独自待着
Yeah I made excuses just to get away
我找借口只为逃离
I tell you maybe when I know I'll stay
或许我会告诉你我将在何处停留
I make plans with myself cause I'm scared to go out
之所以做好计划是因为我太惧怕外出
All of my friends they don't call me no more
我的朋友们也不会再联系我
I guess they are tired of me saying no
我猜他们早已烦了我不停拒绝
All I need was space and time
我要的不过是些许时间和空间
But does it really matter if I'm staying up till 4 drinking on my own?
但若我熬夜醉酒到凌晨四点又真的重要吗
Does it really matter if I'm sleeping all alone waiting for the sun to
如若我一个人睡到日上三竿又有人在乎吗
Rise again
我如升云端
Baby, I'm falling
宝贝 我在不断沉沦
Down again
又如坠谷底
I don't think you know me well
我觉得你根本就不了解我
I don't think I know myself
我也一点都不了解自己
Smile when the camera's out
多数人笑着面对镜头
But honestly that's someone else
但老实说我并不这样
And every party, oh it's way too loud
聚会都太过喧闹
Hate all these bottles that I can't pronounce
实在不喜欢对那些我叫不上名字的瓶瓶罐罐
I don't know what I want but it probably isn't this
虽然我不知道我想要些什么但肯定不是这些
I guess l should learn but I never do
我想我该试着去熟悉但我又从不付诸行动
Cause I always end up back in my room
因为到头来我还是会躲回房间
Cause what I needed was just space and time
因为我要的不过是些许时间和空间
But does it really matter if I'm staying up till 4 drinking on my own?
但若我熬夜醉酒到凌晨四点又真的重要吗
Does it really matter if I'm sleeping all alone waiting for the sun to
如若我一个人睡到日上三竿又有人在乎吗
Rise again
我如升云端
Baby, I'm falling
宝贝 我在不断沉沦
Down again
又如坠谷底