Desperada

Wait... wait... wait... I'm not ready yet...
Then I lay me down on this cold floor
Oh Lord I hope for the cloaked, no intervention saw
That's where I paused, Jeanie, many more fleeting moments
Heck, you just cheating yourself from meeting
I can breathe a ton of these demons into my lungs
And I beat 'em no matter what self defeating attack comes
I put the past in the closet, leave it behind
Locked under key I would cast aside until I needed it padlocked
Put in a stash box, move it along
I learned how to learn patience and when acting is wrong
Turn 360 leisurely, pessimism know her and he grieve with me
Bleed with me, then I got sober, it agrees with me
I moderated shots slower
Finding the piece of me, thank God it was over
I'm here
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I couldn't imagine why I was granted a second chance at life
But I'm so glad that I saw the light
And I see now my purpose right
My purpose right
Just think, what have I accomplished?
End of my life bonkers
What other pill to conquer
It would've just been awkward
Roommates explaining and didn't know why I changed
Since little before I named some pitiful reason lame or
Breaking down doors had even burst in tears
Grieving nurses to fear
Even land lady just standing and looking all ****** up
Like look what the ****** kids
Then cuff someone's arrested for punching a chest in
Wait
Just glad it never had to happen that way
I never would have had an album
Never had met Collin
Never had been travelling
Never had new problems
Never learned how to solve 'em
Never knew I'd evolve then
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And now I lay me down to sleep
I pray the Lord my soul to keep
If I should die before I wake
Wait