So Many Tears

'So Many Tears'
暴徒的眼淚（翻譯來自OURDEN字幕組，我只是搬運工）
I shall not fear no man but God
原來的我除了上帝一直無所畏懼
Though I walk through the valley of death
但當我從鬼門關回來的時候我知道我錯了
I shed so many tears (if I should die before I wake)
流了很多眼淚（我真的要在醒悟前死去嗎？）
Please God walk with me (grab a nigga and take me to Heaven)
祈禱主的寬恕並帶我去天堂
Back in elementary, I thrived on misery
我的生命從痛苦開始
Left me alone I grew up amongst a dyin breed
獨自一人斬斷死亡叢生的荊棘
Inside my mind couldn't find a place to rest
我疲憊的心靈無處棲身
until I got that Thug Life tatted on my chest
直到我把''Thug Life'刺在我的身上
Tell me can you feel me? I'm not livin in the past, you wanna last
你該明白我了吧？我不能總是活在過去的陰影裡，你想永生
Be tha first to blast, remember Kato
但卻第一個離開，Kato記得你說過的這些嗎？
No longer with us he's deceased
他才離開我們沒多少時間
Call on the sirens, seen him murdered in the streets
也給大家提個醒：不要重蹈他的覆轍
Now rest in peace
安息吧兄弟
Is there heaven for a G? Remember me
如果天堂肯收留一個浪子，請給我留個位
So many homies in the cemetery, shed so many tears
為了身邊那些逝去的生命我不止一次的淚如雨下了
Ahh, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears ..
渾渾噩噩了一輩子，冷暖只有自己知道
Lord, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears
物是人非，只有眼淚陪我祈禱
Now that I'm strugglin in this business, by any means
現在的我必須忙於生活和生意
Label me greedy gettin green, but seldom seen
不知不覺我的慾望開始膨脹
And fuck the world cause I'm cursed, I'm havin visions
草泥馬，我被這操蛋的世界詛咒了我甚至可以看到
of leavin here in a hearse, God can you feel me?
睡在棺材裡的自己主呀你看到了嗎
Take me away from all the pressure, and all the pain
讓我從這該死的痛苦和壓力中解脫吧
Show me some happiness again, I'm goin blind
就像失明一般的我看不到一絲絲的幸福
I spend my time in this cell, ain't livin well
在號子裡度過了大部分人生，痛苦而無助
I know my destiny is Hell, where did I fail?
天生就該下地獄的我還他媽的計較什麼失敗
My life is in denial, and when I die,
我掛了會遺臭萬年吧?
baptized in eternal fire I'll shed so many tears
涅磐重生的時候我肯定會喜極而泣
Lord, I suffered through the years , and shed so many tears..
渾渾噩噩了一輩子，冷暖只有自己知道
Lord, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears
物是人非，只有眼淚陪我祈禱
Now I'm lost and I'm weary, so many tears
現在的我除了眼淚什麼都沒有
I'm suicidal, so don't stand near me
離我遠些讓我自生自滅吧
My every move is a calculated step, to bring me closer
我的一舉一動都在掌握之中只為了
to embrace an early death, now there's nothin left
早一些解脫現在一切都不再重要
There was no mercy on the streets, I couldn't rest
街頭沒有慈悲，我不能停下
I'm barely standin, bout to go to pieces, screamin peace
我奄奄一息，身體快要被撕裂，憧憬著和平
And though my soul was deleted, I couldn't see it
但我看不到我那早已丟失的魂魄
I had my mind full of demons tryin to break free
腦海裡面只有想要掙脫束縛的惡魔
They planted seeds and they hatched, sparkin the flame
邪念在我的身體發芽生根，不斷壯大
inside my brain like a match, such a dirty game
只是為了製造那些讓我痛不欲生的勾當
No memories, just a misery
讓我行屍走肉般遭受著折磨
Paintin a picture of my enemies killin me, in my sleep
我腦海總會浮現敵人手刃我的畫面
Will I survive til the mo'nin, to see the sun
我能看見明天的太陽嗎？
Please Lord forgive me for my sins, cause here I come...
親愛的神，偉大的神，你可以怪我太過無知而我只是人
Lord, I suffered through the years ( God) and shed so many tears..
渾渾噩噩了一輩子，冷暖只有自己知道
God, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears
物是人非，只有眼淚陪我祈禱
Lord knows I.. tried, been a witness to homicide
親愛的神我曾目擊過兇案
Seen drivebys takin lives, little kids die
一條條年輕的生命在我眼前被中斷
Wonder why as I walk by
為什麼我總是會
Broken-hearted as I glance at the chalk line, gettin high
看到那些讓人悲慟不已的場景
This ain't the life for me, I wanna change
我想要改變這種不屬於我的生活
But ain't no future right for me, I'm stuck in the game
但對於未來我卻又沒有準確的方向
I'm trapped inside a maze
深陷迷霧的我
See this Tanqueray influenced me to gettin crazy
有時只能用酒精來麻痺自己
Disillusioned lately, I've been really wantin babies
酒醒之後，我想我總得有個孩子吧
so I could see a part of me that wasn't always shady
我想他或許能遺傳我頑劣的性格之外的東西
Don't trust my lady, cause she's a product of this poison
我才不相信我馬子，她們都只會和我逢場作戲
I'm hearin noises, think she fuckin all my boys, can't take no more
我甚至可以聽到她和我朋友們翻雲覆雨的齷齪動靜
I' m fallin to the floor beggin for the Lord to let me in
說來說去，我只祈禱親愛的主能讓我上天堂
to Heaven's door -- shed so many tears
唉，說著說著眼淚又不爭氣的流了下來
(Dear God, please let me in)
親愛的主啊請帶走我
Lord, I've lost so many years, and shed so many tears..
渾渾噩噩了一輩子，冷暖只有自己知道
I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears
物是人非，只有眼淚陪我祈禱
Lord, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears..
渾渾噩噩了一輩子，冷暖只有自己知道
God, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears
物是人非，只有眼淚陪我祈禱
..........by OG..........
感謝OURDEN字幕組